alrighty. here's the 'letter to society' my therapist asked me to write. she liked it, and def supported me afterwards. so i guess that says something. anyways, after sitting on it for a week, here goes:
"We do not choose who we are in many ways. Formed by influences outside our control, or even awareness.
I do not choose how I feel love. All I can do is feel it deeply, and aim to do something positive with that love. I will not be rid of it, nor will I purposely avoid the subject of my passion. To cease loving is equal to ceasing to breathe. So I love, so I can live.
Don't take that as a threat. I love at a distance. Though I wish intimacy, I provide support and mentorship. I need not seek prospective lovers. They seek me. Often, the products neglect wishing to be seen, or natural rebels desiring freedom. Whatever draws them to me, they desire my touch and intimacy as part of their actualization. I instead offer these kids friendship.
I don't do this out of pure ethics. Only adherence to the law. I know the nature of my work, and I don't risk my precarious position as an outed YAP. The ethics of Kid/Adult relationships are a topic for another time. As a previous little friend, I know what joy is possible. I also know society is arranged in a way to make that joy difficult to achieve.
Naturally, I side with those I love. I implore we listen to them. That they be liberated. Not be bound as property to parents. Those that choose us must be heard. So listen! Pedos can't be the only ones that care about the agency and consent of kids.
I call for Youth Liberation. Not due to some pretext of getting a date. As stated, if I wished that, I only need rebel against the law.
I call for it because I grow angry at the abuse and mistreatment of kids. A condition propagated by robbing kids' their personhood. Neither property, nor tabula rasa, but people in need of compassion, and what guidance they desire.
'It takes a village' as it goes. We are your fellow villagers. I don't wish harm, and I hope I've made that clear in this short letter. I will not only argue for myself, but in favor of all those like me. We are many. Pushed to the shadows, we desire the warmth of the light. Dignity to exist openly.
The symbol for childlove is a sun. We desire the warmth of a bright day for those we love, and ourselves.
Until such a day dawns, my work continues."