YZZAJ @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club

I just want to have people I feel safe with irl but I really don't and I'm so scared it's only surface level safety I don't feel safe enough to cuddle with anyone or hug them deeply or anything...I'm scared they're going to reject me...fuck this shit I wish I could go on a night ride but I'm too tired...I just wish I had energy...I wish i wasn't so depleted, so sad, on the verge of crying but not even having the energy to do so anymore. I came to the fediverse to talk about porn and human rights, and even here I got abused and threatened by evil people. I just want to find my tribe. Where do I fit in...where is my place in the linkage?

I wish I could get a new identity but any fedi frens who really loved me as a person/poster would still be able to ask me what my new handle was and so they could make the transition with me into my new identity and we could maintain our relationship...T-T

I think I did it! I finally drove everyone who liked me away with my viciously psychotic fantasies and fictions! I knew nobody could love a monster like me!! *recluses like a spider into the trench hole at the bottom of the ocean*

I'm thinking even more about retiring from fedi posting because it's impacting my mental health to post so much and get fewer and fewer interactions

Gonna fuck your kiddos gonna plow your kiddos gonna deep divk your mini mes gonna creampie your Jrs gonna lick

I'm fantasizing about getting a bar hookup and making them wear the pfp of a fedifren as a mask while we do it without any elaboration

So like wtf is everybody just busy all the time now? T-T

I still have a "headmate" who's racist or something T-T I thought I defeated the racism but it's still there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Idk what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I saw a racist bbc man with a long dong doing racist fetish videos and I got so mad at first but then I found out the long dong racist performer died and I was like soooo happy and relieved but that's fucked, it's wrong to be happy and relieved someone can't make long dong racist videos anymore because they died... isn't it?

Gn frens T-T

You people don't want me to be happy!! /paranoia

If I've unfollowed you and you don't know why we can talk about it just say something, it may have been an accident on my part or a misunderstanding.

I'm sorry for being mean, religion, I'm sorry for hating you. Someone, quick, I'm making 2 OCs, get the birthing chair!

Relogion: He is smug, pompus, and sometimes cruel when carried away, but he ultimately cares and has a very big heart, it's just guarded

Science: He is depressed, quiet, and inwardly destructive, he is very sensitive, he does taxidermy and also nurses any live injured animals he finds back to health and releases them.

Religion and Science are brothers, and their father is Humanity. Religion and Science argue a lot, and sometimes hate eachother, and sometimes when their father, Humanity, isn't looking, and they feel strange feelings, they make eachother feel good.

The higher power likes you as you are, because it made you to be the way you are, and it holds no ill judgement or hate toward you, the higher power wants you to be good to yourself inside your mind, the higher power sent people with confusion to test you, and the higher power sent me to alleviate your confusion.

I'm scared to get religious because I'm worried people will be jerks. So I won't tell you my denomination. I love the higher power so much and it loves me, it loves all of us. When you accept the higher power into your life and your heart, all things become easier. Life becomes easier. It is never easy all the time, but it does get easier with the higher power by your side. It cares, it does, and it knows you're confused, but everything will be ok, the higher power wants you to be alive to learn.

One host telling the others a story about an acting gig: And we were eating *gets quiet and starts cracking up* pizzzza lololololol cheese pizza

and the other two are losing their shit over it like they knew wtfff you lettin your kids learn these are grown ass adults in tiny bodies these days