YZZAJ @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club

Too tired to fap before sleeping, I'll do a double fap in the morning, maybe even a triple fap to get ahead of the curve, I have that right

https://youtu.be/3SzOUvB1WSg
GET READY FOR TWO WEEKS AT THE HAPPIEST PLACE ON EARTH, TIJUANA!!!
<YAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

Not like all the time it's not like I'm molesting the cats belly tum, just occasional gentle pokes and wiggles when they're willing to tolerate it

You know how cats get jiggly little bellies by their hind legs? I love playing with that lol

Thank GOD LAWD BABY JESUS that I had taken off all my fiction writing and old irl photos off of it, SOMEHOW, BY CHANCE, while the thing was crashing every few seconds. Miraculously it kept its shit together long enough for me to upload everything, and then I could never replicate that, so fucking lucky.

I never throw away used devices or sell them or anything, too worried about data security, ao instead I have a bunch of old phones from before smartphones were a thing, and a laptop that had some pretty serious hardware damage when it waa dropped by someone else (I never drop my shit, like some fucking monkey)

It's not like it can be undone though

I wonder how many people I've driven away with my instability who otherwise enjoy my presence...

I was worried it would change my thoughts, but my thoughts are kind of the same, it's my feelings that are different. It's like Pink Floyd comfortably numb, I know that makes it sound bad but, it doesn't feel bad, it feels good. I have very little anxiety now. If someone put me in a self defense situation now I would not overreact or ball up and wait to die, I would respond appropriately with no fear, no fear at all. I couldn't imagine ever having this power again, the power of confidence, it takes the place of bitterness. Anger, rage, those are fine, those are respectable in context, bit bitterness is useless, all it does is rot the soul, same as hate. I don't really hate anymore, I get angry and disgusted but it's more calculated, it doesn't take over my body and mind, I can disapprove of something and then move on, without it consuming me.

I still think life is a dream/simulation but ever since I've been taking these government pills it just doesn't bother me, idc if this is a dream, I'm warm, comfy, who knows what the future holds but I'm no longer paralyzed by that uncertainty.

My balls started hurting the other day, the ball cord was swollen from a torsion or something, it went away, but my point is, I finally understand why some people would cut their junk off, because if my junk hurt like that all the time (I could barely walk) I'd just want to cut it off too.

Me to my cat: *pet pet* awww you got small brain, smoof, smoof tiny brain awwww