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I'm ONLY following a woman if she actually DOES something, regardless of looks. I learn a lot of stuff from ladies about art, and cooking, and stuff.
This is why they keep us separated in our internet ghettos. Keep us from unifying.
The little pieces of shit will be all like "We defeated the adrenochrome drinkers! We defeated all the sex havers! Now we can raise all our children to be retarded! They will bathe with swim trunks on because they are so pathetic!!"
Why don't we jusy put all the freaks who are mean to us in their own country and then build giant walls around it so they can't get out, and then we have to make up a mythology so they think their way if life is the ONLY way of life so they'll have no suspicions of there being other people living differently from them?
Guys I had a dream last night where a girl I liked from middle school was grown with me, and was my gf, and I had no more social anxiety, like I was before I got broken by narcissists in my 20s. Anyway it was an outdoor bbq, like I used to go to as a kid, when life was simpler. She rode on my back and was so happy, we both were so happy, we were so happy...I woke up and felt so, so fucking sad, and angry at my circumstances. In the dream I felt her against me, I could feel her butt against my palms, and her chest on my back, and her arms on my shoulders, and her her face next to mine. This is real. I feel like I'm breaking apart, maybe I've already been broken apart and, like a shockwave I am only now just feeling it. I don't know what to do or where to go. I have started going out alone at night, to get away from my life, even though I'm coming right back to it after a half hour. I roam while the world sleeps, and I feel so alone, and lonely, and in those quiet moments away from my life I feel hope that someone good will find me.
Even though I am not ao tormented by bbcs anymore, I still don't want to promote them because A) Many frens don't like bbcs still and I don't want to bother them, B) The race war is still real and just because *I* can handle a *LITTLE* bbc porn now and then, doesn't mean the world at large could do the same. C) It is already peomoted enough by other sources
THIS IS NOT BBC ADVOCACY THIS IS BBC IMMUNITY, NO LONGER WILL THERE BE PSYCHOLOGY DAMAGE FROM THE BBCS!
I am very proud of myself for overcoming my bbc fear. I used to be filled with uncontrollable rage when I would accidentally see a bbc in porn, I would scream out (it's a good thing I live alone) "NO! GOD FUCKING DAMNIT! FUCKING NIGGERS!!!" but now....now I can even cum while looking at the bbc, I have defeated it, the bbc no longer lives rent free in my mind!
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