https://youtu.be/gs-11No8JJ0
I just want to enjoy my fucking night bro
emotional blackmail/suicide mention
So just a PSA for minors:
If you feel terrible being around someone and they are emotionally draining you, but you feel obligated to be there for them likely you are being emotionally blackmailed.
"you should send me X to cheer me up"
not normal"can we call I feel depressed"
the call is just sobbing uncontrollably, but they are magically horny 5 min later"don't hurt me or I will kill myself" etc etc.
Usually said in less direct ways, but that's the gist.I'm trying to actively stop myself from giving my attention to people who don't give their attention to me, doesn't matter if it's because they don't like me or are just indifferent, I'm done even trying, nobody worth loving is someone you have to be terrified of disappointing, only to have that terror realized again and again, because based on their cruel silent actions, it's clear I have been a disappointment. So I'm done trying. Dark Jazzy return to me now, inhabit my body again and return me to the dark truth of the trench, the depths of the ocean where there is no lying.
I don't have as much time for fedi anymore because I have such bad depression from being single and not having someone who loves me loves me, sorry.
https://youtu.be/z92bmlcmyq0
The Trench