My irl friends have sometimes told me that I'm "brave" or show "courage" for speaking my mind almost all of the time, but I interpret that pessimistically.
If I'm considered "brave" or "courageous" by my best friends, with chiseled jawlines, blonde and blue-eyed, 6 ft 4, full Aryan ubermensch phenotype, work in government, have shaken hands with Prime Ministers and Presidents etc... then what does that say about what "bravery" or "courage" is in the modern-day?
"Bravery", "courage", "honor", "honesty"...
Following these virtues is a punishment in of itself regardless of whether it's related to my thoughts about sexuality specifically or just my other everyday thoughts...
I think I should remind (again) everyone from the "Para" community who views, likes and/or shares my content, I was not always this way.
In fact, I was quite a strong "anti", although this became more muted once I started watching loli porn and came to terms with my sexuality and my own life. I still was "in the closet" for a while, and then became a "morality police" sort of guy. Only now do I see how I was still wrong at all those stages.
There are people on F/Pedi and in other places who I attacked in the past, and I want to apologize to them but obviously I don't want to name them (for their safety, not for mine).
Of course, no apology on my part will be enough. I can't turn back time; I can't remove the pain I may have caused.
I guess this is a reason I let some people from these communities follow me but most not, and I rarely if ever follow people back.
The only thing I can say is that I try to be more level-headed now. I try not to be knee-jerk. I try to understand people. I'm trying to rekindle my empathetic side, although I still can get angry and go on the offensive against people (especially those who remind me of my past self).
I'm not asking people to forgive me. I'm just saying that I apologize.
In a strange sort of way, I think I deserve "punishment", but not in a conventional way. This is probably why I just post everything in public. It's just something that I have to do. My "punishment" is to be attacked by people who I would have considered "allies" only a few years ago. My "punishment" is to fight my demons out in the open.
Lecter commented on one of my posts about wanting a study about how MAPs feel and behave, and I found this.
It is a (20 year old now) research paper about how pedophiles/"child-lovers" view themselves.
Although it is limited to only gay Dutch pedophiles/"child-lovers", I think it's a great paper covering the issue.
I screenshotted numerous passages, highlighted specific parts and added my own short comments to some things.
There is a great point that needs to be made that I haven't seen made by many in the mainstream (for obvious reasons).
Israel and their supporters want "regime change" in Iran, yet the person they hint at wanting is the son of the former absolute dictator monarch, whose security forces (SAVAK) were despised and in the end (it is alleged) simply became the Islamic Republic of Iran's current "secret police".
What difference, if any, will that make?
Where is the "democracy", "women, life, freedom" in that?
The last free and independent Iranian state was led by Mohammad Mosaddegh. He was overthrown because he wanted to nationalize the Iranian energy sector. His overthrow in the end helped to catalyze the 1979 Revolution. This is why the U.S. administration apologized in 2013, because the whole thing "blowback"ed in their face.
Iran apparently shot down one of its own drones and then claimed it was a MQ-9 Reaper.
Earlier they said that they had "evidence" of an F35 wreck, but it turned out to be an extremely poor quality AI-generated image.
I don't know which is worse, Iranian state propaganda (PressTV) or Russian state propaganda (RT)...
At least when the Houthis shoot down an MQ-9, they actually show you pics that prove it is an MQ-9.
I saw 2 interesting videos today.
One from Arizona of a masked-up MAGA guy carrying a pistol walking up to a bunch of #NOKINGS protesters and basically provoking violence (I'm not saying he should have been attacked, but equally, he knew what he was doing by inserting himself right in the middle of a group), pulling out his gun and threatening to shoot them. In that case there was no actual shots fired.
However, in Salt Lake City, apparently the same thing happened and there actually WAS shots fired. A person "had their head blown off".
Many German tanks in WW2 had such poor ground displacement that they needed track-extensions to better spread their weight and prevent them from sinking into mud and snow.
Soviet tanks were generally noted for their factory-standard wide tracks, which enabled them to be more mobile than most vehicles in muddy and/or snowy conditions.
Soviet "untermensch" understood displacement better than Hitler's Mum.
At this point, my "workable" solution for this shit is as follows:
Hamas transfers power and weaponry to the PA/Fatah/PLO to run Gaza (2024 Lebanon Hezbollah ceasefire scenario). Hamas has previously agreed to this multiple times.
Bibi's coalition replaced.
Iranian government replaced.
Comprehensive ceasefire deal in Yemen between Houthis and Loyalist/Saudi/UAE/Israeli/Western-backed coalition. Federalization of Yemen (plan proposed by Hadi, most likely supported by UAE Souther Seccesionists, probably also supported by a significant proportion of Houthis as well).
Ben Gvir, Smotrich, Bibi + remaining Palestinian Gaza resistance military/political leadership + remaining AoR/Iranian leadership have to face a regional, extensive truth and reconcilliation comission chaired by vetted neutral party.
De-nuclearization of the entire region. No nukes for Israel. No nukes for Iran.
Possible schengen system in the future?
I think it was Sinwar who prophetically said Oct 7th would expose all the liars and change the regional dynamic irrevocably.
The Israelis would say they agree with Sinwar, but for the wrong reasons.
Perhaps. I think it's all still up in the air.
I've thought for a while (since the 61 year old Sinwar's death in combat) that, if/when this all ends and the dust settles, the Israelis will end up having more respect for the Palestinians than any other people. In a way analogous to how honest Americans have an immense respect for the fortitude and virtues of the Native-Americans of old.
Isn't it crazy that this Iran-supporter, who doesn't even live in Iran btw, uses the exact same language ("new normal") that Israelis use?
With friends like these, who needs enemies?
I don't know man, whatever...