YZZAJ @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club
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Joined Nov 2021
Only god has absolute knowledge
I've been wasting my time
best knowledge not absolute knowledge
I concern myself with so many ifs, while ignoring reality, because reality might be an illusion, maybe I should just work off my best knowledge and stop worrying about absolute knowledge....if I want to live I think I will have to...
https://youtu.be/0NDyF4UW7vU
Lethal weapon 3 is an emotional journey
@Sp She said "I've noticed a change in you", we were talking about race and I was crying, saying how messed up it was that people from white countries used advanced technology to abuse less advanced brothers and sisters (humans), and how they were people, and how I was lied to, and how I believed the lies, and how I believed in genetic determinism, and how I hated myself for being mixed, but not anymore, I hate the people who did this, not me, all people, every race has evil in it, I hate every evil person who did this evil
@Sp I thought nobody was really, really racist, like I thought, there's no way, these people are just scared, scared little kittens, they're like disney characters who are just misguided, but after seeing certain scenarios illustrated theatrically, it's very clear to me now that there are some very evil people on earth who really do hate other races just for being different (these people are found in portions within all races).
@Sp No she does believe in it, I was the one who didn't believe and learned more and then changed my mind.
@Sp When did you decide your mind was your greatest asset? (if you did, if you did not, what is your greatest asset?)
My mom said she's noticed a change in me since I watched roots and the color purple and realized that racism was real
Watching lethal weapon 3! Black and white comin together, part 3!!!
@Sp How would you say you grew up economically, high class, low class, or something in the middle (akin to my family, who I consider to be a kind of house slave, so middle class)
I've had some bangers here and there that got some attention, but mostly people just don't have the attention span, they don't care enough to read shit, and then there's the language barrier, since you're a global audience it's safe to assume images with no text would have a broader appeal, but idk how to say what I'm saying now in images, I have a vague idea but idk how to set about turning such written/spoken ideas into drawings. And then there's the problem of my grammatical/structural inconsistencies, which are enough to drive even myself mad when re-reading a post and recognizing so many mistakes, so I can imagine what it does to a readers head, probably makes them nope out of finishing and probably makes them avoid even giving my posts any time or energy at all because they suspect (with reason) it will be incomprehensible jibberish that goes nowhere and so would be a waste of their time. I really hope they ignore those feelings though and give me a chance, and read what I have to write, because I think it's important, I think I'm important, and I think you're important.
I wish written content was as popular as image content, because if I was making drawings and posting a bunch of those instead of making written posts I think I'd be getting like 5 likes a post by now
I would like to interview fedi users, I want to know so much about you all, you genuinely interest me
@Remejy The molesting wasn't violent or against my will, what was upsetting was that my molester discarded me after, avoided me, I would have much preferred he sucked my dick every while I sucked his. Tbh. Kind of gross that he just used me like he did, that's what's upsetting, if he had treated me with respect and kept on as a big brother figure who I could have sex with, we'd both probably have had better lives. AAMs and MAPs alike suffer from the consequences of draconian cult practices.
@Remejy Interesting, I'm glad posting helps. For me I noticed animals sexually after noticing people, I was attracted to boys, men, women, and girls, as a boy starting as young as 5. I was molested one time but it wasn't traumatic until years later when I started getting angry that I didn't get to have sex as a kid, because I felt those urges very young and they were never acknowledged by adults around me. As soon as I found porn I was so happy, it was like, my whole life I had been raised on a false dark religion, and then I found practitioners of "the sex" and suddenly I was filled with hope, the hope of what could be, that there was more to life than hymns and prayers.
I've got to get more confidence and idk if fedi helps with that or not
@coolboymew The government is a cute anime to them, they think Govchan is so cute
Yo I bet it would be a really good feeling to give a stranger a gift, but not just give them a gift in deed but in heart and in spirit, look them right in the eyes and make it clear that they're not a prop and that they don't owe you anything back, just to see them smile and feel relief
One huggle snug for user A
One huggle snug for user B
One huggle snug for user C
One huggle snug for...etc
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Joined Nov 2021
