I'm ashamed that I wish europe was cleansed of muslims, that's you know, bigoted, and that's not good....but I really hate those racist bigot fucking pieces of shit (no offence if you are unfortunate enough to be saddled with the nonsense of Islam but you happen to still be a good and normal person)
I am alone. I am in my house alone. It is not a big house, but it's a house. And I'm in it. Alone. I have some dishes to do. Maybe I'll make some coffee. Whatever I do I hope I enjoy my own company. I have some cranberry sauce I could open up. I have a yard too maybe I'll go walk around my yard, it's a big yard, as far as yards go, it even has a back part with a treeline that goes on and on. So it's got a little privacy. But I'm still lonely.
I know some of you guys "hate" jews but uh, this rabbi is saving my life with videos like this
https://youtu.be/QDkXpUiSwVM
I make collages to take my mind off things, I use stickers but the stickers are of IPs I don't own and are bootleg amazon stickers made by artists I can't credit because I'm not sure who made them. Do you think it's ok for me to post my collages, ethicality? I think it's fine but I don't want to get a hate mob after me for not crediting artists.
I've fapped to so many filthy things, sometimes the same thing multiple times, that I have ascended, I can see entirely new hentai scenes in my mind when I fap with my imagination, no scenario is too impossible to imagine, I'm nearing complete psychological freedom. If I could focus enough of my energy and take it seriously, I could use those self generated mind images as templates for drawn hentai. And they're detailed too, it's like I'm looking at the drawing but it's in my head, and when it moves I can see it frame by frame, and an entirely new development has happened where I have started to imagine things in CG form, this has never happened to me before but I'm starting to imagine deep scenarios with ingame models from games I've been playing a lot lately. It's weird. I'm really interested in where this goes, if anywhere.
https://youtu.be/EmT0i0xG6zg
I missed the last contrapoints video! Watching this now. She mentions the gay rights movement and how some ugly bitch from florida who couldn't keep her legs shut bitched about gays and called them groomers, JUST like today hmmmmmmmmmm
God this helped me feel so much better just now
https://youtu.be/g9gewo6fVCE
If I posted my real face bad people would be able to find me................ it's sad that Idk if anyone will ever get to meet jazzy, or if you ever do, you won't know it....imagine what a wonderful surprise it would be though if one day I trusted you enough to tell you I was Jazzy and you were like "NO WAY REALLY????" and you were so happy because now YOU had an irl friend who you could trust too! That's the ideal fantasy. To have a friend on the fedi, with a different account, and you meet in person and have coffee, and even get married and have kids, and you know you can finally trust them, so you show them your pedi account, and they start crying, from happiness, and then they show you their pedi account, and you two were moots this whole time! And you live happily ever after.
Ok even though I'm sure other people would make fun of me *I* looked in the mirror and felt fantastic seeing what looked more like a girl looking back. I even started smiling and giggling like I haven't in a long time. I need to get away from my family. I can't be myself around them. But I have nowhere to go. I just have to get really good at grey rocking and maintaining boundaries.
Project ended.
Project status: Failure
Debrief complete.