YZZAJ @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club

I didn't have sex until I was 18. She was petite and I loved her, met her at a house party. She was so beautiful. Everyone called her a gremlin though. But I loved her and didn't understand why everyone hated her. My first time was with her. She was amazing. She blew my mind. She took complete control like a mommy, and took very good care of me like I was a little boy even though I was twice her size. I was so dumb and inexperienced I didn't realize that the reason she was so good, was because she had lots of "experience". My gf was a whore. A slut. When I found that out I was devastated. I was like a dopey innocent retard who fell in love, I was basically Borat when he realized Pamela Anderson was a skank. Heartbroken and devastated. I dated others after her, but I never fell truly in love again. None were as good as her (in bed or in conversation), but she had her own flaws, she was prone to dangerous spontaneous behavior like running around and stealing cars and shit. I loved her, and that's why it hurt so much.

Why can't I just find someone like her, but without any of the bad parts?

Me: I'm going to start saving hardcore pornography so that I can use it as reference to learn drawing

Me now: Thousands of vids and pics later, haven't drawn a single fucking thing, developed a porn addiction

There's still time to get back to drawing so I should probably do that.

I REVIVE THE TIMELINE
https://youtu.be/twWZmQMbTZo

When I see someone so hot I just want to bite them...

Did you know your brain hemispheres are actually two separate entities? The left controls language, and the right side of your body. The right is silent, it has no language with which to speak, so your whole life you're thinking you're this one entity, when in reality you have a silent partner tagging along taking orders because...what the hell else is it going to do? Rebel and cause the whole system to crash? No, it wants to live, so it silently helps and rolls its eyes every time you think you're alone in there.

Haven't masturbated at ALL today! Usually I'm a twice in a row guy, three times a day. But this penis injury is reshaping my existence. I have so much free time now. I'm still loving the pornz, but I'm just not fapping because it's so much work now to get the fleshlight and the lube and then wash it off when done, exhausting. Maybe this will make my loads bigger when I finally do cum.

Is the only way for evil to not exist...is the only way for evil to not exist...necrosis? Is the only way to stop evil, something unforgivable? All life competes, this competition is evil. Plants murder other plants, with their roots, with their canopies, this is evil. All life is tinged with evil. Is the only way for peace then, complete entropy? Is the death of all things the only way for evil to disappear? I don't want to believe that. I want to believe there is a way for organisms to cooperate, but darwinistic evolution does not allow for this. Any "cooperation" is selfish. Life is selfish. Life is evil. Fuck Darwin, he was wrong. Son of a bitch asshole. Life is not fucking evil. Evil inhabits life but that doesn't make life itself evil. Fuck Christianity. Fuck Satan. Fuck god.

I shouldn't assume everyone has seen the same fucked up shit that I have. I know some people choose not to look at the horrors of the world. But I've seen things that still bother me and make me wonder what it would take to wipe evil from the face of the earth.