I remember telling him I just want someone to be my own, and for me to be their own, and that I'd be grateful to even get that much, and he comes back at me with "that sounds like slavery" and shit, like dude you're the sick fuck trying to impose not me
also he tried really hard to get me to be polyamorus and would get mad and nasty whenever I showed any fear or apprehension or anxiety about it, or diagust, he'd just start calling me names and saying I was a closed minded bigot and shit
The way I met my abusive older ex:
Friend tells me if I want to fuck a crossdresser this is where to go
Trust friend, go
Meet the person he told me about, he gives me a pill and is friendly
I'm totally stoked, the club is packed for his event, this was my first time being in a place like this, it was dirty, colorful, loud, and felt dangerous, but he was literally in charge and I was his friend so I felt safe
He asks if I want to go back to his place to sleep it off, I do
He says he has to stop at his job to get something, it's a salon
He gropes me outside the door after we walk up the stairwell
I'm frozen, not sure how to react but I'm enjoying it, going with the flow
He takes it out and gives me a little handy for fun, no blastoff
I'm out of it
Dizzy
Get to his place
Fuck like animals
Some of the best sex I've had in my life
I only topped
He later tells me he has a husband![]()
I was 16 when this banger dropped and this song made me want to fuuuuuckkkkkkk
https://youtu.be/qTsaS1Tm-Ic
I look at myself in the mirror and I look at my hips and tummy and I just wish I had none of the weight so I wasn't squishy.
Here's the weird thing about society, they don't care if you hurt yourself they only pretend to (when they have to). They don't have to pretend to care when you are working yourself to death and holding your shits in for a day or something so you can get more work done until you die. They do have to pretend to care (if they want to look human) if you're lighting yourself on fire in public. Funny how that works.
I really liked working on this drawing of Nunu, I will finish the others properly, and at the same time I will make the new prices and modes for commissions very soon!
Support my work:
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Thank god I have my pain pills. Before I got them I could barely get out of bed in the morning, I haven't been able to function in over a year. But now I can pop one, and move. And I use a lot of my movement to do pt stretches because I don't want to waste it by sitting even more and atrophying even more.
I look forward to the day when "private companies" that are necessities are rounded up, taken by the neck, beaten, raped, and turned into public entities which are beholdent to free speech laws. No more youtube deleting comments or videos, no more twitter doing the same, anything you can do in public during pride or any other wild ass street orgy event, you should be able to post publicly online so it's not like porn would go away either.
The Trench