I haven't stopped eating meat completely like I want to, I tried but started feeling very tired and hungry no matter how many beans I stuffed into myself. I'm eating a little meat for now, like 1/4 of what I used to eat. If I go to bulk again I'll have to eat more, but I'm cutting for now and have switched to organ meat to reduce fat intake.
I often feel like I'm screaming into the void online, I have felt this way for 7 or so years, probably longer. I have my element link for chats, and while I appreciate the few who began talking with me, most fell off and the only one I chat with for the most part is @tarperfume - We speak about personal experiences, opinions, feelings, fairly normal stuff, although stuff that often goes unsaid in real life (speaking only for myself on that). It reminds me of what the internet used to be like, I could engage for hours with many people, and they would be more consistent, although people have always disappeared randomly online without explanation, I feel like it used to happen less. People would post consistently on their little chan boards but now everyone is so scared (rightfully so, since everyone just lets bad people get away with a lot these days, good luck not being crimed in some way or another whether it be defrauding through false advertising or full on murdered by a stranger) that they keep their little scared mouths shut. Too afraid to share any opinion that isn't a generalized platitude. The levels of autism in young adults is staggering, idk how they function, they all look so emotionally exhausted, smiles are rare, and I wonder to myself if they're actually doing anything to fight against the corruption of the world (doubtful) or if they've resigned themselves to being a slave (more likely) and are very depressed about that. I wish I could Fight Club these people and wake them the fuck up.
It's so hard to "do the right thing" and NOT attack entire groups linguistically, maybe even impossible. If 9 out of 10 Christians abuse you, it's really hard to not say FUCK CHRISTIANS. Same with blacks, atheists, gays, you can even BE A PART of the groups you HATE because you've been MISTREATED by members of that group. I HATED gays for a couple years after being mistreated by my same sex ex. I hated Christians, then stopped hating them because I had not been exposed to one for a LONG time......then I met ONE shitty Christian, and I went back to fucking hating them...the me who's accepting would not be cool with the me that is bigoted, idk what to do.
Reading the POCD reddit and just shaking my head slowly, it's so dark. Some poor guy on there was freaking out because he, while masturbating in the shower, kept seeing images of kids in his mind, and he cummed... so now he feels like a line was crossed or some shit. These people, normal people, have been brainwashed and gaslit into being their own little jailer, their own torturer, it's like having some foreign thing, like some scifi organism that takes over your whole body, and turns you into a slave.
Opinion
Christians are either murdering INNOCENT PEOPLE or they're PROTECTING EVIL ONES
When will people find out these are literal demons under a false banner?
Fantasy
And before you say "They're overworked and under paid" know that I agree, which is why I'm pissed they're not DOING THEIR JOBS AS CITIZENS and kicking the shit out of the crooked evil taskmasters who don't even care if we the customer get what we fucking paid for. Take over the damn warehouse, slow down work, so you can DO THINGS PROPERLY god damnit.
You know what pisses me off, makes me sick? Why didn't Steven Universe fuck the gems? It FITS NARRATIVELY! The Gems are ALIENS they don't have human hangups, they LOVE Steven, they would OF COURSE DO WHATEVER THEY COULD to give his human body PLEASURE! JOY! AND they love Rose Quartz, who is literally Steven. The Gems AND Steven should be FUCKING in that show! Garnet should be neckin Stevens little Steven non stop, Amethyst would be eating Stevens butthole, Pearl would be religated to ball duty. Once Peridot and Lapis show up, they're a little abusive towards Steven at first, saying "Get away, I'm not having sex with you", but after seeing the Gems and Steven bond socially in ways that were forbidden in normal human society, they both knew their dyke lesbian pussies couldn't be held back anymore, they needed that Stevencock. Soon Steven Universe began walking all his bitches through town,on leashes, naked. The people were shocked, and some even tried to stop Steven and the Gems from expressing themselves, but Steven only laughed, and kindly said, "I have the power of a god!" and the people relented out of fear. Steven and the Gems started having sex in the middle of beach city.
The Trench