YZZAJ @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club

Hey guys ok so I'm well into my "after 20s", and I have no social circle, none, I cut them all off, ghosted them years ago, all with good reason, and my question is, how do I meet people to do normal human sex with if I'm not in college?

Ok guys another confession time.
This is gonna be a hard one, a really hard one, this is rough, it feels like a betrayal by me...the truth is, I fapped to bbc porn recently, it shook my world, I haven't known how to deal with it... I've fapped to it before yea sure, but that was by accident, it was incidental, this time? I searched it out. I LOOKED for the bbc porn........and the thoughts....the thoughts in my head?? The thoughts of submitting to the bbc...they made me sick.....but they made me cum........I have been fantasizing about having stables of bbc niggers in fine luxury fucking my ass and letting me fuck their black asses while their bbcs flopped everywhere and then they would all fuck my wife and cum in her while I fucked and sucked their asses.

I don't know what's wrong with me. It's like some lovecraftian shit, some entity has infected my mind with BBCs, I even have been imagining what the bbcs must have been like that raped my gf, I imagine sucking them and sucking the cum out of her raped pussy while they fucked me and I imagine they all have AIDS too...do I need therapy? I'm confident I can handle this on my own, some guilty part of me must feel as though it needs to be humiliated by bbc buck niggers, and so what I have to do is build myself up so I no longer feel deserving of such a deranged fate... perhaps?

Ok guys confession time. This causes me stress. I feel inadequate for it. Anyway, I don't jizz much. Like, ever since I was a kid, and a teen, and through my 20s, I just don't cum much. My dick is above average according to google, but I still feel like it's REALLY small, like I feel like it's not a real dick unless it looks like a pringles can, and is also uncircumcised...I AM circumcized, which is mutilation, and a form of rape, I was genitally raped with a knife by a "doctor". Anyway, my dick, I wish it was just more than it is, you know? I wish my loads were huge, but they're small. I've seen guys shoot loads, in person, that were huge, like 2 shot glasses full of cum, *spurt, spurt, spurt spurt spurt, spurt, spurt, spurt* that's 8 fucking spurts, I don't cum like that and I wish I did, I cum like *spurt, spurt* and they're small, the spurts are not big, I cum like a teaspoon usually, maybe a tablespoon, but not much regardless. I've even taken supplements and abstained from cumming for days, and the best I can do is fill half a shot glass. :(

guis u know i love fruit juice drinkies...but they make me fat T-T
How do I give up fruit juice drinkies when they're my favorite?

I think I'm going to pick mint cinnamon, since it's so much like windows

I just remembered the starfire/raven tentacle rape animation by zone and how that shit was like life changing for me

Eat soup or Drink soup

https://youtu.be/ePq7PRQcZOo
I love the effort they put in with the acting and sets, even if it's goofy

If I'm honest, I'm more like Big McIntosh than any otherpony, I wish I was a fempony....but I'm kind of thicc...but yea body type and personality I'm closet to Big McIntosh

I was never good with numbers so thought I wouldn't be good with computers but computers aren't like hard math, they're like legos, if I think about it that way I can do it

If I didn't have that creepy spider guy as my stepfather, I never would have learned a few basic things about computers as a kid, and I never would have started now finally getting really interesting in them without feeling overwhelmed. He was never a very good teacher, he wasn't around much, but a few moments lodged themselves in my memory, and some words, and slang, about them, so they feel familiar. But it was always too complicated. This all changed with a lego set I got as a gift a while back, it was one of those car sets, so I build the thing, and while I'm building it I feel like a kid again, but this time I don't feel scared, I felt scared a lot as a kid. And then I realized, I can do things, I can put things together...so I get looking at models online, and I think "I could do these" but I wanted more, and I thought of computers. I wanted to put them together and/or alter them and learn how they worked. And then I got interested in software again, I was long ago but never learned much, but now I want to learn.

What do you think my safe space is (my happy place)

If there was a race of space people who came here to earth, and they dominated us, and subjugated us, but it wasn't that bad, I'd be cool with it.

Oh man, I've been treating porn fapping like a completion achievement, that's why I've been fapping so much....wow....I just realized....no matter how much porn I fap to, there will always be new porn, I will never fap to all the porn (100% Completion)

I'm
NOT going to disassociate around my date
NOT going to trauma dump on them
NOT going to accuse them of cheating on me after they leave my field if view