YZZAJ @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club

I am alone. I am in my house alone. It is not a big house, but it's a house. And I'm in it. Alone. I have some dishes to do. Maybe I'll make some coffee. Whatever I do I hope I enjoy my own company. I have some cranberry sauce I could open up. I have a yard too maybe I'll go walk around my yard, it's a big yard, as far as yards go, it even has a back part with a treeline that goes on and on. So it's got a little privacy. But I'm still lonely.

Imagine beating up a big dicked boy and making him your slave and saying ha that dick doesn't mean anything you're just my dickslave

Collage I made (idk the original artists sorry)

I know some of you guys "hate" jews but uh, this rabbi is saving my life with videos like this
https://youtu.be/QDkXpUiSwVM

I make collages to take my mind off things, I use stickers but the stickers are of IPs I don't own and are bootleg amazon stickers made by artists I can't credit because I'm not sure who made them. Do you think it's ok for me to post my collages, ethicality? I think it's fine but I don't want to get a hate mob after me for not crediting artists.

I've fapped to so many filthy things, sometimes the same thing multiple times, that I have ascended, I can see entirely new hentai scenes in my mind when I fap with my imagination, no scenario is too impossible to imagine, I'm nearing complete psychological freedom. If I could focus enough of my energy and take it seriously, I could use those self generated mind images as templates for drawn hentai. And they're detailed too, it's like I'm looking at the drawing but it's in my head, and when it moves I can see it frame by frame, and an entirely new development has happened where I have started to imagine things in CG form, this has never happened to me before but I'm starting to imagine deep scenarios with ingame models from games I've been playing a lot lately. It's weird. I'm really interested in where this goes, if anywhere.

Me drunk on vodka: lemme see dat tranny dikk......lemme see dat tranny dijk bby (talking to a picture on my phone)

If I could get that black d in me off a well groomed black trans wife/partner, mmmmmmm damn son they'd have a bed and room for lyfe even when they got all old n shit (DRUNK thoughts)

https://youtu.be/EmT0i0xG6zg
I missed the last contrapoints video! Watching this now. She mentions the gay rights movement and how some ugly bitch from florida who couldn't keep her legs shut bitched about gays and called them groomers, JUST like today hmmmmmmmmmm

God this helped me feel so much better just now
https://youtu.be/g9gewo6fVCE

If I can't tell if you're hating trannies ironically or not I'm going to unfollow you I don't want to see shitty anti trans memes in my feed. I get it ha ha funny, for you, annoying for me.

If I posted my real face bad people would be able to find me................ it's sad that Idk if anyone will ever get to meet jazzy, or if you ever do, you won't know it....imagine what a wonderful surprise it would be though if one day I trusted you enough to tell you I was Jazzy and you were like "NO WAY REALLY????" and you were so happy because now YOU had an irl friend who you could trust too! That's the ideal fantasy. To have a friend on the fedi, with a different account, and you meet in person and have coffee, and even get married and have kids, and you know you can finally trust them, so you show them your pedi account, and they start crying, from happiness, and then they show you their pedi account, and you two were moots this whole time! And you live happily ever after.

rap: The way these bitches be ignorin me

Gonna have to change my name legally

to something precise like Smoke Detector

I wish so badly I could show you guys my makeup and you could give me makeup tips and we could have makeup streams where we mostly said nothing and fiddled with some shit and then did makeup

Ok even though I'm sure other people would make fun of me *I* looked in the mirror and felt fantastic seeing what looked more like a girl looking back. I even started smiling and giggling like I haven't in a long time. I need to get away from my family. I can't be myself around them. But I have nowhere to go. I just have to get really good at grey rocking and maintaining boundaries.

I did my makeup for the first time in like 3 years and I did a horrible job idk how to even do it nobody taught me and youtube videos are hard to follow along with, I'm sure I look like a disgusting freak who everyone hates because I went down the tranny alt right pipeline and now I have self hating feelings when I didn't before because I internalized the group dynamics bullshit and so if you're an alt right tranny GET AWAY FROM THOSE PEOPLE THEY ONLY PRETEND TO BE YOUR FRIEND THEY ARE NOT YOUR FRIEND IF THEY CALL YOU NAMES AND VICTIMIZE YOU!! but anyway I understand why nobody would like me I'm a freak who was too stupid to stay where it belonged and now I have noone irl who is a friend. I am so isolated and scared irl. Oh and I could only do my makeup because my family is gone who swears they aren't transphobic but they fucking are, they say little shit to me because they think I'm not trans about how kids are being tricked into being trans and shit and it makes me fucking sick to have to pretend and just be like "Well who knows, people decide what they decide, you know?" and they snap back with shit like "NO, they're being MANIPULATED!" and this is a fucking person who has power over "vulnerable" kids and gives them life advice and shit and it makes me sick to wonder what kind of values they could be giving these kids.

I just took some anti anxiety meds because I can't stop crying and being scared that everyone on fedi is fake and playing a trick on me.