Just now I was looking at the stars for a while and now there is this existential dread deep inside me that I just do not understand anything about reality anymore.
Let's assume I'm made of everything that's somewhere in the entire universe then where did it all come from? Was it always there? If not then what it the origin of everything and why does it start to exist? It feels like I'll never be able to find that answer and it scares me to admit being limited to have just human knowledge and abilities that aren't enough to comprehend what's going on around me.
@hideki I'm like mentally unable to do anything it seems. There are always more questions than answers on my mind.
I want to figure out how to use .VMD (MMD) motion data in Blender or how to retarget it so it can be used with my own character.
Also I still struggle with like "anime shading" and all the jazz that comes with it like custom normals and also hair physics. Hair transparency and idk, I think the list just get's longer while I think about it.
@LukeAlmighty That's sad. I'm sorry for your loss.
@hideki To be fair,I do my own art.
@LukeAlmighty America 2.0? That's not the society I want to live in.
How did you come to this sort of conclusion?
@LukeAlmighty In my humble opinion people of the past all had intact communities for the most part.
What the people wanted was work (to not starve to death) and a way out of the economic depression.
Where the real ruse cruise begins is that one could claim "they" reversed everything the nazis did and somehow the allied nations all went down with Germany. Looking at the state of the west (or POCCNR) now, it's hard to imagine those countries won a war while i.e. Japan lost WW2 too and is off way better.
@beardalaxy It's not real (yet).
Your frenly shut-in / NEET that occasionally gets depressed and is tired of life. [ EN | GER ]
Out of touch with society and the new normal I dwell in the past, thinking about memories of better days when everything made more sense.
I'll post whatever is on my mind or seems interesting enough to share. Feel free to interact with me.
Interests:
Blender 3D modeling, digital art, bicycle racing, space, scifi, weeb shit, synthesizers, HiFi, VGM/BGM music, imageboard culture, banter and politics.