beard ひげ @beardalaxy@gameliberty.club

@rasterman yup it does, that's why I don't take it xD it took 2-3 years of not being medicated to finally feel like myself again. Another one gave me more seizures, one just did nothing, and another one made me drop to about 100lbs in 2 weeks. Mix of seizures and the meds stunted my growth as well. I still have some clothes from middle school I can and do wear.

So yeah needless to say, not worth it.

I'm here alone today so I'm running the place my way. Not with random borderline pop music but with some nice touhou jazz

@rasterman one of the tests they do when you're having lots of seizures is to actually deprive you of sleep/food to see if that triggers anything. Unfortunately both times we had the test done nothing happened so I stayed awake for 24 hours and went like 12 of it without food for nothing.

@rasterman yup. In high school I had a lot of seizures because I was under a lot of stress and not getting enough sleep. So I try to keep my life as free from stressors as possible. Thankfully I'm usually pretty good at it, and when I'm not I'm usually in a depressed state so I do get enough sleep.

In high school I'd sometimes only get 2 hours of sleep right before school, but never wanted to bring it up to my parents because I was supposed to be in bed so I'd just pretend I was sleeping. Then I'd go to school and be faced with all the stress that comes with that, then I'm having seizures which is stacking on more work for me to do and I'm failing classes, and I was having a spiritual crisis the whole time. So yeah high school was tough.

People ask why I can't do stuff anymore since I haven't had a seizure for over 8 years but it's because I don't do stuff that I haven't had a seizure. Still come close plenty of times though, even with something as simple as a 10 minute jog.

I play a pretty wild balancing act all the time that's only possible because of years of bullshit that taught me what to do and what not to do. There are times even now where I'll recognize I'm having more absence seizures than usual and just warn everyone about it just in case.

@rasterman not really, you can suppress them though. Only problem is that the medication sucks ass (at least for me) and the other method of doing it electromagnetically doesn't work for me because they don't know where my seizures come from.

@rasterman but yes naming the jew does help.

@rasterman the cool thing about having seizures is that I can't work out enough for it to do too much. I have to REALLY space it out. Often times I'll go a little too hard and have to sit down for a few hours unless I wanna die. It's pretty fun :)

I basically work out the point of remaining physically healthy and that's about all I can manage :P

I'm not trying to make excuses for myself or anything, that's just the nature of it. Part of why I go too hard sometimes is because I hate making excuses >.>

@picandor this is a little freaky because I just made a joke about "giant lightning christ" yesterday without knowing this happened

@YeetLibs I've never met a nun in general lol.

A lot of people seem to have bad stories of religious figures if they went to like, a private catholic school though.

@icedquinn @emilis I really wish someone else would snag that idea of HRV though, the wall hack mechanic. Made the game so good. No minimap but you can see through walls. Lead to a lot less camping and some highly tactical play. I played it so much that I completely forget minimaps exist in other shooters and don't rely on audio cues whatsoever xD

@icedquinn @emilis there are no servers up. There is 1 guy that pushes updates to the ps4 version to rotate a couple items around so it looks like it's still active and you can still purchase everything on that version. The game would still work 100% without that though, as long as PSN is up.

All the rights were given back to the devs but they stopped hosting servers because not enough people were playing. Seriously all they had to do was port over the ps4 p2p and they could have let it run by itself through Steam.

They said they were going to focus on new projects and have done quite a lot of work since then on random stuff like call of duty and the ps4/xb1 ports for a hat in time. Just a shame that they have pretty much completely forgotten about the game that is their company's namesake. Hardsuit Labs.

At the very least, they haven't issued a takedown or anything to the guys trying to reverse engineer the servers. They don't let anyone talk about that on the subreddit though, perhaps because they were using corpo shit stuff for it.

Pool all the data of all drugs and their known treatments, side effects, controversies, etc. together and make an AI that doctors can plug in patient symptoms/conditions to in order to see what would be best for them.

Watch how fast it gets censored.

@Humpleupagus @YeetLibs @milk moreover, science can only tell you what it THINKS will happen if you do something. Not what will actually happen. There are varying degrees of success there.

@dave better start preparing now

@icedquinn @emilis I'm still mad they shut down Blacklight Retribution on PC but never brought over p2p from the ps4 version. Like wtf.