Fuck it, it might be about time to put in the drastic measure.
Either I win, or I become a lolcow.
Today, I start at 100.9kg
99,4kg
See? This shit makes no fucking sense.
Good morning everyone.
100.4kg.
Fuck, I don't even feel that great -_-
99.9kg.
We're so back 
99.2kg.
What a beautiful morning. 
Good morning everyone.
98.7kg
Fucking mental load is starting again -_- 
97.4
To be fair, yesterday was anything but an average day. I did a ton on excersize, so I had 2 meals instead of one.... and a bit of aclohol.
97.1
Slowly getting back on the track 
96.8kg...
I literally had nothing, but a single chinese soup yesterday -_-
96.1kg
Definitelly feeling like it too, but nothing unbearable.
On one hand, it is getting ridiculous, just how much time I spend in bed lately.
On the other hand, 95.5kg.
Good morning
95.1kg
96.4
This is the sad part of the entire process. One bad day will throw your progress so far back on the numbers, that you think you will regain all 5kg in a week.
No, you're not. And you haven't gained so much. But the weight loss numbers are tricky this way. Don't panic :D
I skipped a day, because I seriously felt ashamed of the sudden jump up.
I am not someone to quit easily, but the JoJo effect is so bizare, when it comes to weight loss.
I will keep on reporting on this adventure. I have not quit yet.
95.6
Good morning everyone.
94.6kg.
Didn't sleep well today.
94.6kg.
Good morning everyone.
Feel free to post some bully posts, since I deserve it today.
97.7kg.
Good morning everyone.
96.5
I am not giving up yet 😉
Was even at gym yesterday. That isn't easy, while in such a deficit.
Hood morning everyone.
I am still stuck at 94.6 today. It can get so irritating to see the progress stagnate, but at least the hunger isn't as bad, as when I started.
(meth)
@trjjb
Oh, I thought you were joking :D
Well, yeah. I heard about that. Although, I am trying to live my life as drug free, as possible.
90% it was a psychological issue, or I really am built different.
Anyhow THE DRUGS ARE WEARING OFF
@trjjb
I was also taking them for just a while. But, I don't remember, what caused me to hate them so much, but I begged my parents to stop asking me to take them.
The insane part about ADHD is, that most of the problems are just from the rest of the world being filled with fucking liars :D
@trjjb
Or.... Why are you taking the pills? What's the issue?
When I inevitably stopped succeeding at everything first try, I was bombarded with criticism, that I'm lazy, wasting my potential, y'know, like I'm doing it on purpose. In 4th grade I think it was, my homeroom teacher (obese childless liberal cat lady) sat me down for a talk and outright accused me of being malicious or some shit, because I wasn't "having control over my troublemaker classmates" like it's my fucking job to do that.
What's worse I believed her and turned into a kid worthy of being shot in the head the moment I opened my mouth.
Somewhere in there my father went out of the picture (good fucking riddance), meaning there wasn't anyone left to keep me in check.
Nobody has ever taught me how to study for anything, because supposedly "I only had to read/hear something once to instantly memorize it", no fucking clue where they got that from. Grades started slipping in high school, which I still breezed through, because it was easy to con everyone into thinking I knew what I was talking about. First semester in uni lost all motivation, didn't see reason to try anything ever again, burnout, depression, SSRIs, therapists, none worked, someone told me it looks like ADHD to them, got diagnosed quickly, hence the me(ds)th.
Shrink was cool, actually, outright told me it's possible to manipulate the tests, even unconsciously, that it looked like ADHD to a T but could still be something else.
And it was. No need for meds now, just had to stop deluding myself.
@trjjb
Funny, I had the exact oposite experience with shrinks. I was diagnosed at around 6 years old, and when that happened, I was told outright, that I will be happy, if I finish special school.
Well, studying in primary and high school had minimal issues, but dealing with normie classmates was pure hell of an existence.
But now, I have a relatively relaxed and creative job, so no drugs needed .D
