Mr.NutterButter @Mr_NutterButter@gameliberty.club

Day's fucked but I can't even get the decency to fall asleep

My day's been getting worse and worse today.

I think I should just give up or something.

Lost a semi-long term friendship do to my mental breakdown because they had me make a choice and I chose wrong.

Then I decided to hook-up with someone because I wanted to feel wanted and that ended horribly too.

I just shouldn't have even tried today.

I'll just give up venting.

There's no point.

I'll just stay to myself until the end.

I wish I would've been better.

But I'm not

No one in my family even knows I hate myself

They think I've been the happiest I've ever been.

Glad I can keep that lie going

I don't want to talk to anyone I don't want anything.

I want to not be worthless.

Why couldn't I have been born differently.

I hate my gender and myself.

It's always my fault.

I'm never worth anything.

I'll be given pity but that's even worse then just being a failure.

The only thing males are good for are work.

That's there only value.

That's why I'm worthless

Every burden I carry is light but yet everything feels crushing.

Guess I'm a defective male.

Oh well, just throw it away and start over.

You ever wonder the difference to why more males are born?

Probably be there worth less and god know it.

I always wondered what it feels like to be born inherently worth something.

To bad, everything I'm Worth I earned and it's worthless with no one to give it to like money.

You know being born the disposable gender feels great.

If your not the top. Your treated worse then trash because at least trash is useful to flys.

You know I'm glad I have this place to vent.

Because there's no point of venting to anyone as a guy because no one cares.

It's best to just absorb it until you kill yourself. And even then no one will care. Even if they do. They only care because you can no longer give your parents grandkids. They never actually care about the individual if your male. They'll just make another one anyway.

What music people listen to typically indicates how they're feeling.

but I'm feeling genuinely depressed but listening to old classical British sea shanty's & love songs.

What this indicating.

I feel weird 😕 like this is the 4th time I've made out with someone that I've been dating but I don't feel anything.

I like the person there vary sweet.

I love being affectionate towards them but I just didn't feel anything at all.

I never have when it's come to this stuff in general. Like I can get in the mood and everything but it's purely biological like as if I was hungry and not anything emotional.

What's wrong with me. Why am I like this.

"The liberal's obsession with extending life as biomass at any cost, is only matched by his utter inability to answer why life should be lived at all."

- Mr.nutter

My favorite thing to do on the Internet is to save images of cats with cigarettes in their mouth and images of dogs given guns by their humans.

I don't know what kind of spiritual energy this gives off but I definitely have it.