YZZAJ @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club

Friday! Church night!
Tonight's church will be focused on quiet contemplation. The tenet of nothingness. Empty mind, no emotions, just observe, don't judge or anticipate or plan. #CoTT

The chess femboy I play chess with is still around, he gave me a pep talk and now I'm taking my time and making better moves. Took his queen from across the board! He usually wins.

OK, I WAS IN THE PROCESS OF GETTING AROUND TO DOWNLOADING THE FUGTRUP ARCHIVE, BUT MEGA, THE NIGGER SITE RUN BY KIKES, DELETED THE FUCKING ARCHIVE, PIECES OF SHIT I HOPE, NO JOKE, THEY ALL, ALL OF THEM, THEIR FRIENDS, THEIR FAMILIES, GET RECTAL CANCER AND THEIR BODIES LIQUIFY

Because seriously, you're just crossing the fucking line when you're deleting delicious zelda and link porn

Omg imagine crushing CEOs skulls

Ohhhjj noooooooooo
BURNY SPICY BUTTHOLE
AHHHHHHHHH
BRACE AND WAIT FOR IT TO PASS

Things i like that are southern:
Crawdads
Ribs
Peanut slaw
liquor in the gas stations
politeness
guns

that's about it
I like faggoty too though and degeneracy as a whole so, idk if i could ever live in the south

also like muddin
and tractor pulls
and lould ol engines smashin into eachother

I might be a northern boi but I might have a southern soul

I really want to be a good boyfriend to somebody one day, anybody really (within my parameters). I want to even be their husband one day. I'm not a rich man so unless they were well off our wedding would be small, but meaningful. It would be the most special day of our lives imo, and I would want it to be so special for her, I believe it's "her day" as they say, and I would sell a kidney if it meant I could make it a day she would be touched by, a day that not only fulfilled but exceeded her expectations. I've been mocked by other guys for confiding this stuff in them, but this is who I am. If this makes me a "fag" than I'm a fag.

Jk kitten you know this would be our song instead
https://youtu.be/oSyIuZkQLZw

Kitten...
This could be our song
https://youtu.be/QYqRcJKhNiE

Follow up with
https://youtu.be/-cOtRoWkhWY

https://youtu.be/Dq07deBzQfU

https://youtu.be/-wrRJeanBr8

I would realistically give up one of my testicles if it meant I could have a dedicated wife of my choosing, the rules are she would have to be fully dedicated to me and that's it. If I made the choice right now I would choose a steroid muscle mommy. That's what I'm in the mood for. That's how bad I want one. And to be clear she would be my wife FOR LIFE no divorces or anything and she would have to be a good wife and that means no sexlas marriages, just good happy wife happy husband happy sex all the time, and she's jacked. That's what I'm trying to attract from the universe right now.

When I say I can't afford a therapist I mean I can't afford one that's worth a shit. And I want the therapist to be driving distance. I don't like online meetings. They feel soulless. It is hollow communication. I need to smell the other person in the room with me, I need to feel the air pressure change as they move. It's about trust, I trust you, you trust me, were in this room together, we could maim and cripple each other and there would be nothing the other could do to stop it. And so there's trust, we trust we won't do that, and we behave accordingly. That trust, when shown to be well placed, builds respect, that respect is the key to the mind, heart, and soul.